Going after an abuser is traumatic in itself. Going after multiple at once is overly traumatic. In the last week, all of the things I’ve been teaching, promoting, and otherwise calling out men for in the last year has become an up close reality. It’s caused my brain to literally suffocate. Reliving one trauma is enough! Having to relive multiple everyday, while being stalked and harassed is an entire different feeling. The women supporting these abusers are just as evil.
Today, I received messages on Tiktok regarding my trauma. It definitely wasn’t positive, so I’ve since made my accounts private. The advocacy I’ve created to raise awareness for abuse just brought me so much more pain. The reason I created a platform was to create positivity. It developed into everyday stalking and harassment from people who don’t even know me.
Most generally, its women who are supporting these abusers. When you support abuse, it makes you an abuser. After watching the documentary on a woman who was forced to give her baby up for adoption, I started having flashbacks from every trauma I’ve never reported. The things I have made reports of was never taken seriously or I was called a liar. Fast forward 30 years, she ended up advocating for her disappearance because the system failed her too. That created more fire in me.
The episode called, “Into the Fire,” on Netflix, was a true story. Watching her have to relive that trauma, watching a woman support a man for 50 years with a history of pedophilia, rape, and murder, and various other disgusting behaviors, sickened me to the point I started reliving my trauma. I decided enough is enough!
Every abuser out there is going to pay. If you know about abuse and do nothing, you play victim, or you have a hand in helping an abuser you are just as guilty. In my eyes, you are even more evil. This world needs more advocacy. It will continue to be my mission to not only raise awareness, spread positivity, empower you to be better, and do better, but I will continue telling my story, and going after all the abusers in my life that have not been held responsible.
It is time for this pain to end. After having another near death, out of body experience today, I woke up again. I was reborn. I will not allow another person to get away with abusive behavior or tactics to tear me apart. If you don’t like that I finally have a voice, then choose to be better. Choose to be a good human. Choose positivity! You weren’t born for evil. You created it!
Hate should be a crime too! If you choose to be like this, you are not only creating more negativity, but you are the culprit for more abuse to continue. Until hate stops, abusers will continue.